Wednesday, August 22, 2012

This Guy

Amazingly, with all of these pregnancy hormones, I have yet to run into the "will-I-have-enough-love-for-more-than-one-child" irrational thought. I am, however, starting to mourn the loss of the relationship that Bennett &I have right now. It's generally just Bennett & me for 60+ hours a week &obviously adding another little person to the mix will change things.

 Honestly, Bennett is awesome with babies. I've been watching a little baby a few days a week this summer & Bennett is fantastic with him. He's so gentle and caring. He helps me get diapers & always tries to bring the baby a toy when he's fussy. I know that things will be different when his brother doesn't go home at the end of the day, but we've been talking about that a lot &I'm not anticipating many issues with Bennett vs. least not until Silas can voice his opinion on things.  If anything, I think that Bennett will act out against me.

 I do wonder what he will think about me loving on another little person like I love him. I try really hard while I'm babysitting not to sing the special songs that Bennett and I sing together, or call the baby any special names that I have for Bennett, but I'm not going to be as careful about those sorts of things with Silas.

 Last night, I asked Bennett if there were any special things that he wanted to do with just me before Silas comes. I know that he doesn't really understand what's about to happen, but I want to try to fill the next few weeks with fun things that he & I can do that we won't be able to do as easily for a while with a baby. He told me that he wants to pick out a dinosaur for Baby Silas before he comes. Sure, bud, we can pick out a dinosaur for Silas...but what about you? Then we talked about how Silas won't go "home" like the baby who comes now, because this will be his home & Mommy & Daddy will be Silas' mommy & daddy. Who knows how much of this he's really getting, but I can try, right?

 Then Bennett prayed and thanked God for his little brother. "Dear God. This is my mommy, and this is Baby Silas. Thank you for my brother." I died. I'm so excited for Bennett to have a built-in playmate. I just hope that I can get life balanced enough to be able to still do special things alone with Bennett too.

This post is all over the place. Really, I'm just going to miss all the one-on-one time with this amazing little boy. If anyone has suggestions for things for us to do before Silas comes, I'd really appreciate the input!

33 Weeks & 2 Days

Due Date: October 8th, 2012

Weight Gain: +31 lbs...yikes! I've gained 18 lbs since my 26 week appointment! I think it's just catching up to me since I didn't gain as much in the first two trimesters. I'm definitely feeling the sudden weight gain, though. 
Sleep: Not a whole lot. I think pregnancy insomnia has officially set in. Combine that with having to use the bathroom 2-3 times a night & my pelvic pain issues (see below), I'm not getting a whole lot of sleep. I guess I'm just getting ready for the next year or so.

Gender: Boy

Feeling: With my weakened ab muscles (a gift from Bennett) and the sudden weight gain, my pelvis has been killing me. Like, I cry at least once a day because of the pain. It's pretty bad at night. Matt was laughing at me la st night because I had to psych myself out before rolling over. My OB recommended that I get a support belt to see if that will help with the pain. It came in the mail yesterday, so I'm hoping for some relief from that. 

Movement: Lots and lots of movement. I can definitely tell that he's getting bigger & trying to stretch out.

Belly: I'm now measuring right on. I feel big & am starting to grow out of my maternity clothes. I hate having to buy more with 7 weeks to go, but I have to wear something, ya know?

Next Appointment: Next Tuesday!